An experiment in personal development

Happiness is a choice. Be sure to make the right one.

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I knew that 2010 was going to be a year of major transitions in my life. Deep down inside, I just knew it. I assumed it would be mostly focused in the career and personal development areas, but I simply did not anticipate the heavy, deeply personal life lessons hitting me right in the gut in recent months. When it rains, it pours. Perhaps, even a little symbolic, with all the precipitation we’ve been getting in Denver lately. And yet, I can’t help but notice a pattern; a vague hint of a grand scheme somehow orchestrated that seems to be guiding me in the right direction, albeit through some real fire pits. Ironically, this seems to be helping me overcome my weaknesses, even if it’s through pain and serious bouts of self-doubt.

I realize something now, though. Life is a complicated, twisty road. It’s never perfect, but sometimes it can come close. It is often difficult and seemingly unfair, but it’s life and there is a purpose behind everything that happens. Even, if that purpose sometimes doesn’t become apparent for many years, or in some cases — at all. And, to be alive is one hell of a great gift that should be cherished, no matter what.

When shit hits the fan, it’s not random. It’s a wake-up call to re-examine the choices we make, the patterns we fall into and the very nature of our actions. At least, that’s the way I see it. It may be naive or wishful thinking on my part, but more and more I’m starting to realize that nothing is random. Every single action yields a reaction, and the butterfly effect is more than just a fascinating theory. It’s the fabric of life itself.

You have to look deep within yourself, peel away all the lies and half-truths, manipulations and distractions; shed away the fears that cripple and transform you into something lesser (the most difficult thing to do, in my opinion) and simply focus on who you are. Clear away all the clutter, and the nature of your being will shine through — embrace it. Follow your instincts, create positive patterns in your life and happiness will find you.

Yes, my life has gotten complicated in the past few months. Perhaps, the worst since 2006.  I briefly lost my way. I’ve had enough emotional roller-coaster rides, burn-outs and major life lessons to last me for years to come. But now, I feel that perhaps it was just a detour that was needed to teach me something important. And, I feel that the time is right to clear the clutter and get back to the basics, both physically and figuratively speaking. So, let the spring cleaning commence. And let’s see what’s next, around the dark corner. Somehow, I feel it’ll be sunshine.

“If you want to be happy, be.” – Leo Tolstoy


Written by vadimonkey

April 26, 2010 at 7:19 pm

Posted in Life

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  1. I’m sorry 2010 has been difficult for you. I’ve been going through a bit of spring cleaning myself. I’ve noticed that, sometimes, hard lessons have a way of revisiting us…even if we think we’ve gotten the whole lesson.

    I don’t think things get easier; they just get different. One thing that has helped me immensely has been reflecting every day on what I’m grateful for and almost forcing myself to be grateful for those bad things. It is a simple choice, and being grateful for these things is easy once you’ve made that choice.

    I hope things get better soon. You know where to find me if you need me.


    April 26, 2010 at 7:37 pm

    • Thanks Alma. It really hasn’t been too horrible, just some things that made me re-think certain choices I’ve made in the past. I really feel it’s all for the best, in the long run. So yes, I’m actually almost grateful for all the bad stuff that happened, because it makes me appreciate and strive for the positive things that much more.


      April 28, 2010 at 10:06 am

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